This is not because I’m the lecturer of Petra Christian University…. but I have just learn about something this afternoon … in my daydreaming ….. oh,no ….. I’m must be drunk because of the Poetics of Space by Gaston Bachelard. ( perhaps… yes…but Petra… right now I’m not missing you. So ….Sorry…….I’m not in the mood of going back teaching now…..hehe.)

Do you know that the word Petra means the rock? What kind of rock is it? I know that last time I have a friend which is as stubborn and has a very tough personality and really ……like a rock. If it is in positive way, I really don’t mind. But my friend’s attitude has made a lot of people suffer. My friend is as stubborn, as tough, and as strong as… really a ROCK !!!! Nobody can really touch my friend’s heart. But you know ,its the philosophy of nature……

Do you know that water can make hole in a rock? The dripping water… yes, it really can touch the rock, until it makes hole through it…… The dripping water which touch the rock has made hole on it and let the light come through it.

Actually.. what am I going to say? Do you know what, sometimes we are not patient enough if we have a friend or relative … or anyone that you know that being as stubborn or as tough as my friend. Whatever tough is “the Petra”, The gentleness of water can melt it down…. what you really need is patient, love, and care.Because I saw it from my previous experience. My friend is turning, from a stubborn person to become a person who has a lot of love and attention to others.

Like my motto in life…. three things that I always mention in my life. Love, Faith, and Hope. I believe that faith and hope will always guide me to find the things that I love. And to see it, is only about live patiently in faith and see it in hope.

Trust me friends…… 

Have a good day…..

Dear Grandpa,

At last, I finish it grandpa…. I complete my competition until I reach the finish line today. I finish all of my assesments and they give a positive feed backs of all my work. I don’t know what grade that they will give to me, but I just pray that they will appreciate me. I just want you to proud of your granddaughter, even there are no one proud of me or my works.

Thank you for all of the inspirations that you give to me as a hardworking person, and you teach me not to give up. I know that you can see me up there, wherever and whenever you are, I miss you and grandma. You know what, when I felt alone and lonely, and almost give up, I always thinking about you as my inspirations. Thank you for teaching me to be a taft girl, and try to reach what I want without any fear. I try to be like you, always being humble, and start everything with prayers and hopes. And I know that eventhough we cannot make it today or even see it, someday, it might be come true. Even you cannot hold me along the isle on my wedding day, I know that your inspiration always walk with me along the day.

I work with a lot of limitations, Grandpa, but I can make it. I know that I have to work twice harder than everyone else, but it has make me learn about a lot of things. I learn to respect other people works like the way you do.

I still have a lot of dream about this life, and I don’t know how I am going to reach it. I only put my dream to walk together beside my faith and hope, and I believe that I will see each of them come true as everyday miracles in our life.

Thanks for everythings, Grandpa… I hope to go back home with proud and happiness. I miss you so much…

To my beloved Grandpa, ( The late ) Mr. Tan Hong Gwan , who left me forever on my 23rd birthday.

(September, 8th 1918 – November, 9th 1999)

Perhaps, this is one of the most difficult things in my life, that I share with you.

Today Singapore is raining, not even today, it has been raining before for several days.  This kind of weather has made a strange kind of mood…which is affected the way I feel about my life. Today I got a call from home that struck deep into my heart.

It is a problem, a serious problem that have to be faced by me as a woman, a student, a working woman, a mother, a daughter, and a wife. I problem which asked me to think deep…and more. A problem that put me into the intersection, when my love has to choose.

I came to Singapore in a strange way. I feel that I came at the right time and the right place. I believe that it was not by coincident  that I meet interesting persons, interesting place, and interesting phenomenon. For an “alien” like me, who came from developing country, Singapore is like a great place,which provide everything that can make my dream come true. I like the living environment here, I like the weather, I like my friends, I like my teachers and seniors, I like my work, which I feel much more better than the place where I am from…I see how people being appreciated of their work, I see how life is being safe and organized, I see how people live in harmony, and I see unity in diversity. I still can here the sound of nature, which remind me of my grandma’s house, I can enjoy walking to school, and I can watch the squirrels outside of my room’s window.

But today, it seems I have to choose….. between everything that I like here, and the other things that I love, also…which are my family and home where I belong to.

I can stay here for the next 2 months or 2 years extended my learning period….or I  probably can realize my idea about being a professional architect who has great jobs and great projects as what I dream before…. but sometime I feel that it is not right…..I feel that my ego will hurts a lot of  people that I love ,too.

When love has to choose… and when I stand in the middle of the intersection….actually I can see in a lot of direction, in which way I have to run. In which way I have to drive my aim…. I hope this love is not my ego,but it is the best for everyone.

When I looked back to this 9 months that I have passed by, I cried through some little things that God has created to me. I believe that all blessings and miracles that He shows me are about  His marvelous works that we cannot see. I do not want the thing that He has done through my life is destructed by my ego, which make the whole thing miserables.

I do not know how am I going to drive my dreams to come true….But I believe that my hopes and my faith will drive me through…..

Until someday, I really will reach my dreams.

As you know, I like to sing.. actually it’s not only singing, but to gather friends and I meet people from around the world. Guess where am I ?

We have great time together. Last December 2006 I join the choir for Christmas Carol Concert. And for the last time before I will go back home, I will join the Tenebrae Service, which is The Service of darkness. ( sounds scarry isn’t it… ).

But actually Tenebrae Service is a service that follows the tradition of the church dating back to the eighth century. From the Latin word of Thenebrae , which means darkness and memorates the final hours of our Lord’s life on earth as he suffered death upon the cross.

I promised to upload some pics here, since I have trouble in uploading it now…..

By the way, happy easter everyone… God Bless You. 

written by Christine Wonoseputro as Thanksgiving Reflection.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day, and there are a lot of things that I have to share with all of you :

When sky does not always blue,

And sun does not always shine,

Suddenly I realize that it is parts of life that we should be thankful of,

Although life is not as smooth and easy as we hope…

But people in our life teach us so many things about how we should face our life,

To make life as the wonderful thing of God’s giving.

As from Joey, I learn about how tough she is as a girl and a woman, facing her life as an independent woman. She solved every problem without dragging anyone into the depht of symphaty of herself. In contrary, she always make me laugh and happy.

As from Dewi, I learn about how kind and helpful she is. Thanks for being my good friend, I hope not only in Singapore, but in the future,too.

As from Dorkas, I saw how God has change her life. How the things that we never saw before, become a dream come true in the future because of His name.

As from Liang Hwee, how coincidence, that we met! Nice to know you, I pray for your projects and your work. God bless you sister.

As from Andy, how mature he is compare to his own age. He is more suitable to be a big brother than a little brother to me. Thank you for your kind attentions and being a good leader to our class.

As from Sheung-Hwa, even we’re just met, I felt that I have been in the same position of you as a mother and working woman. It is really nice to meet you! Keep praise His name!

As from Rev.Hadi and his wife, thanks for the spirits of serving that you have shared with me. God bless you as a humble servant of His name. Glory to God In His Throne!

As from Jerry, I learn about how to be a good lecturer. To hear and spend his time for his students no matter how busy he is, especially for being a nice “shoulder -to -cry on” among all of us during our hard study period.

As from Kent, I learn about how life should be balance. I learn about how knowledge should be shared and transposed to the juniors – by letting us joining his research trips. He always gives us comforting comments, that in contrary has been making us even embarrased with our own works. Thanks for being nice lecturer for all of us!

As from Casey, I know how patient he is to all of us. He has been our lecturer who lets himself driving his car for all of us during some trips. Thanks for being our lecturer.

And the last but not least, is from Peter. That accident has make me learn a lot of things in my life. That life is worthy than everything that we have. I like you as a creative, humble and hard working person. And I hope all the best for you, your work, and whatever you do. Thank you for sharing your experience of your life with us.

Thank you all for taking parts in my life. God bless you… and Happy Thanksgiving.

Singapore, 22nd of November 2006

These are my creative work during the Creative Design Analysis Class with Jackson Pollock.org.

Gone With The Wind, this movie title is in my mind..

Actually these are blue fungus,that I found in my breakfast bread this morning…. disgusting isn’t it ??…………

The Angels send from heaven.. and

Centerpoint of attention…………… and that’s it.